Friday September 12th, 2008 @ 10:28 PM

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I keep on thinking about why young ducks follow closer and for longer to their mother if the mother is bad to them.

The young duck must think they are acting in a way that deserves painful punishment. So they stay. And stay and stay to prove they are good and should be treated as such.

But what people know and animal’s don’t is that a parent’s abusive actions are not executed in response to the child. If anything, these behaviors originate from above on the family tree.

I doubt ducks fully comprehend that no matter what they do they can’t make a hater a lover.

So ducks! You can’t change any duck but your own duck!

If you love something you let it go and if it comes back to say hey it loves you too.

HEY! YES!

There are no original ideas here.

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Friday September 12th, 2008 @ 10:23 PM

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When I step into a space,

I take it up.

If you hate yourself,

there’s a reason.

I don’t understand how my body stays together.

I don’t think I have long.

I miss XY.

So, too.

I’m too here and barely there.

I need a long hug from you.

Nobody else will do.

You’re gone so I swallow two times two times two times two times two.

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Friday September 12th, 2008 @ 8:35 AM

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I love teacing and doing (yoga).

I love riding horses up hills (unlike bycicles).

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Thursday September 11th, 2008 @ 3:23 PM

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I am making the best dress I will ever wear.

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Thursday September 11th, 2008 @ 12:40 AM

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The gnawing

is knocking.

I won’t open my skin and let in.

I mean,

out.

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Wednesday September 10th, 2008 @ 11:10 AM

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I’m not an elitist.

I am elite.

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Tuesday September 9th, 2008 @ 11:55 PM

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I sleep about four hours a night.

Maybe that’s all I need. But I can’t deny how much clearer the inside and the outside become when I get a few more. Sleep upgrades my status from circle to sphere.

I’d rather roll in three dimensions so before now I tried everything to get more sleep, from black to white. Actually there weren’t many shades of grey in my attempts. I tried good ways and bad ways and nothing in between.

Now, I don’t try.  I don’t lie down on my bed until I’m falling asleep on my feet.

Now, the entire house smells like cookies. Oatmeal chocolate chunk walnut cranberry cookies. I love making things, especially when making things involves baking things!

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