Wednesday August 13th, 2008 @ 10:07 AM
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The two nicest things you ever said to me were; that I was that one in a thousand that god is watching over, and that I was your most feminine girlfriend.
My worst quality is that I can be convinced of almost anything.
It is why we fell in love. But is it why we stay in love?
I needed you, and you needed to be needed. The perfect match, for real. Except that perfect is impossible so it follows that we can never be together in life as they know it. So we continue our pattern, not talking for three weeks and then something else for three days straight.
I can’t decide whether it is as wonderful as it is.
This is not what I believe.
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Sunday August 10th, 2008 @ 9:39 PM
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You never told me that I wasn’t alone in it, whatever it was or is (I still don’t know). You’ve made me more alone by offering to stay even with it.
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Sunday August 10th, 2008 @ 4:21 PM
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I am hair modeling for Vidal Sassoon next week so soon my hairstyle will be different. My aesthetic is in need of revision ONCE AGAIN.
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Sunday August 10th, 2008 @ 4:11 PM
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i bet
if
u gave me just
one more chance
i’d reall do it
this time.
btw m kebaord is missing the letter “whii”.
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Sunday August 10th, 2008 @ 4:10 PM
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I don’t know what I want. Or do I?
Maybe this is what I want. Just what I want, okay? So please don’t make that word greater than it is because then what I want becomes too EVERYWHERE to fit into a form that can be told. See, I’ve lost it already. These ideas about me are sort of like particles, I can’t know both where they are and how fast they’re going. Only either or. Keeping it simple, I want beauty in my own life and in the lives I make. Yes I do want babies (but I have to heal my own first).
Things don’t happen on there own though. Or do they?
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Saturday August 9th, 2008 @ 2:18 PM
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Not knowing, I’ve returned to my body through bikram and breathing and biting.
My path is change.
My purpose is telling.
I’m still embarrassed though, to really own that, you know? Or maybe the trouble is finding the best way to tell a story that did not start and will not end, which is not to say it does not move. In fact, it moves so fast it seems still, giving you no ideas about my flight to there and back to here where we meet.
Hello!
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Thursday August 7th, 2008 @ 5:01 PM
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I messed up my body.
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